MY.CAPTURED.MOMENTS.

Im having a ‘Pre-Valentine Blues’, and i hate it.

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….Waaaah….

And too bad my twin sis ain’t here anymore… kaya i dn’t know who to share my Kikay Emotional Syndrome sickness. Alangan namang sa boyfriend ko baka maloka lang yun sa ‘ken. Ayokong sabayan ang work load niya ng aking walang katuturang kaka-emote at kaka-kulit. *sigh* Tippyyyyy!!!! Ako din krung-krung na, we’re in the same box! Shetness naman o.

Haay. Baby i want a super tight hug…

Shucks, why am i having this? Eh tapos na naman ang red alert ko!?

I guess, it’s just simply a pre-valentine-blues-kulang-sa-pansin mode.

Damn it.

(BG MUSIC: Popsicle Toes by Michael Franks & Diana Krall) ang cute noh? Love it. =)

Hay nako. i still can’t understand why the client yesterday just backed out. We did naman what we’re asked to do, BUT they don’t know exactly what they wanted… kaya siguro hirap mag-move forward yung teams with their videos. (I’m talking about the client dun sa racket ko ha)…haay mahirap talaga magpalaki ng client… now i know why some people spoil them too much, for a good cause: for them to stay. Yun nga lang most of them are really abusados. kapal ng mukha palibhasa THEY ARE PAYING. Even here in my industry which is Advertising… there are hundreds of them. Kapalmuks. kaya my patience is becoming super ULTRATHIN sa work.

Anyhoo, ayoko na ng bad news. good news naman. And the good news, my ads were chosen to represent Shangri-la again kaya i’m doin fine. Then my Shell ad’s already been released in C! magazine. Love it.

NExt, here’s another frustration of mine:

i think I’ve been so hottt-headed this past few days and i really wanna apologize for not controlling my temper. And the origin of my being hot-tempered lately is… that Bonus issue. Well, it’s much better to GIVE than to RECEIVE, noh? Because I just had a 201 file BAD RECORD in the office for doing the GOOD DEED of meeting our client on behalf of someone absent that day. my only fault was: i didn’t inform lang my superiors. Big deal huh!? But, I’ve let go of that.

Kasabay pa nun was when my hubby saw that one certain email in my inbox. and it was from my ex. kaloka. but i felt really sorry cos i didnt even bother tellin him that before sa inaakalang isa lang yun sa mga immatureness ive had those past years. well, i believe it’s my fault kaya sorry again and i love you so much and thanks for listening and understanding. i know i have my flaws but i hope you still accept me and forgive me for my sometimes-memory-gap.

Next: the deadlines came rushing down at us… especially at ME. Fine, i was able to manage them BUT when the Xmas Party Committee started to meet… the water had just started boiling. And i hated how Ms Letty keeps on buggin me each day about the party needs. Buti nalang my convincing power was so great kaya almost everything that i wanted for that party has been pushed through.

Again, next: Yung lecheng P****r client na yan, sakit sa voombunan. hindi na talaga ko natutuwa promise. and i really don’t care if She heard me raising my voice sa galit sa background while our Accounts person was on the phone. this time, im really pissed as in. how come the client’s been fond of looking for me na instead of going straight to accounts department!!? nagsilbi lang naman akong tagasalo ng hindi ko dapat pinoproblema and i didnt even know who to call out for help. But then again, I TRIED to let go of it. (but i didnt.)

Sure after that may dumating pang nakainit ng ulo ni Tita Nice. Although it came to me a bit later na, at least naibalita pa sken ng isang kikay friend ko (whom i wna thank)… kaya i opened my friendsters (of course with an ’s’) then checked out Kingswood’s account. There. Truly some photos bulaga-ed moi! Hindi talaga ko natuwa. The past and my present… together on that photo really made me shiver sa inis (or siguro selos talaga si tita nice noh) … para bang all of a sudden i didnt see myself existing. Or maybe, the one who posted those pics NEVER acknowledged my presence at all. Kaya im sorry baby if i gave u a call kagad that day coz it really pissed me off. and if the one who posted those pics STILL thinks that the ‘x’ is far better than me…., please lang… mas maganda ako. ahihi… ooops sorry, im just being naughty here. bahala na kayo to judge…*wink wink*

WHATEVER. i don’t hyperventilate. i don’t cheat. and most of all im not perfect, but i know my worth. kaya, to those who wanted to annoy me.. get a life cos i have one….so much. =) peace on earth to some of my office mates who made me boil last friday especially to Sir Boy and Ms Letty; to Ms Pinky of Pfizer who wont stop botherin me with her revisions; to my Big Bosses who still don’t know what PEACE really is; to all the pa-cute gurls tryin to get my icoi’s attention; also to some freaky boys who stare at me then at my chest bumps — sorry those are icoi’s; and to pareng Billy, who made a difference. Peace Y’all!

i’ve written this because it’s Christmas…and i don’t want to bottle up bad feelings to anyone anymore. =)

I HAVEN’T STARTED YET.

The what?

THE SHOPPING!

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Long ago, i’ve always planned going to Divisoria to buy christmas presents. Now, i have no guts since the people go bustling here and there especially. And, one more thing, i don’t have enough budget for that yet that’s why i ain’t that too excited on gift giving this holidays. kainez.

(But i already prepared a list of peeps who are worth-giving-my-gifts hehe)

Anyhoo, later i have to check again another place for our office Xmas party. Disappointment it is noh. Too much of them kasi to decide kaya hindi matapos tapos ang pag-iisip kung saang hinayufak na venue gaganapin ang lintek na parrrty. I mean i was already satisfied (most of us actually) with the Prince Plaza’s upper penthouse by the poolside. And i even suggested for a Luau Party para stress-release. Imagine just going to a party on your comfy havaianas noh and a cute skurt. hay naku ayoko problemahin, let them do the struggling.

Over the past weeks, i’ve had so much things to do..things to finish. And fortunately, na-organize ko naman ang sarili ko to do them one at a time without having any conflict with my chillax life. =) See? I’m learning na to BE ORGANIZED. Thanks to icoi..’love u! ahihi… tsk tsk…you naman my icoi, i’ll teach you how not-to-panic and not-to-be-so-sungit while doing a lot of things. cute mo pag suplado.

Anyway, all of a sudden i realized na what i want as a xmas gift. Here’s my top ten:

1.   Mac Notebook

2.   iPod Video

3.   New Phone (yung clamshell para kikay cute)

4.   set of Make-up (wag Ever Bilena please)

5.   shoes

6.   Perfume (go to Rustan’s)

7.   Body Spa and Massage

8.   Shopping Spreeeeeeee

9.   —- ? —-

10.  —- ? —–

9 and 10, to follow nalang wala n’ko maisip eh.

MOOD FOR TODAY:  In the mood for love love! hihi..

What i want for Christmas…

tsk..tsk.. ewan ko pa. later na ‘yan. =)

Anyhoo, been busy lately..  puro work. work. work. and i’ve thought over and over while workin:

Would all of my stressful workin’ days pay-off someday? i mean, TATAASAN BA SWELDO KO HA!?? P******** toooooot. ahihi. :p

Oh well, i don’t want to expect. steady lang c nice. just work hard…u know, and all that stuff.

LOAN. for my sis and bro’s tuition. I did it because - 1) Just to let them realize na I’m ’still’ and ’super’ concerned about some financial difficulties at home since two of my siblings are still in college; 2) I never wanted  someone sayin "Hindi  na’ko nakakatulong or wala man lang akong ginagawa…..

Funny that some people think I’m not doing anything plainly because most of the time I’VE ALWAYS LOOKED OKAY DESPITE SOME BULLSHITS. THAT I STILL LAUGH OR SMILE EVEN THOUGH THINGS AREN’T FINE. OR, PURO KAKIKAYAN NALANG OR WHATSOEVER. HAAAY. Oh well… *smile pa din* =)

My question now is: Will ‘they’ appreciate what i just did?  Will ‘they’ thank me?
Wait, I’m not stressin on some of my good deeds… but i just want a simple thank you or appreciation.. and not feeling na pabigat ako.

EHNIWHEEEY…. NOW, i want some massage, i wna have a not expensive but sulit and yumyum dinner, i want that iPod Video just to keep myself sane & not deprived when Im bored, I want my salary loan to be released ASAPNOWNA, i want a good book, i want to buy lotsa breadtalk for mommy en daddy en my sibs, i want more and more time (kung pwede life time na) with my fredric, and lastly… more time for praying and worshipping the Lord. =)

My Xmas Wish List???

  Read this entry again =)

Cheers! =) 

the last time i blogged pala was september 11, hihi…=)

so… i’ve been so preoccupied by what!??

by work?…. oh NO =) in fact, there’s been a few projects lang lately kaya petix.

by chikahan?…. oh NOT THAT too =)

But, Bein with my icoi’s……………. PSP. har har har. :p

eye luv it baby! it’s…. it’s… it’s so addicting i can’t stop!

as soon as i get my 13th month I’LL BUY.
hmm… if and only if i want it still =)

HEY MY ICOI…. i luv u so much hmmm can i borrow it some other time again???

*winky wink*

ang emote emote ng sounds ng opismate ko, not funny anymore. its not helping. leche. ay nako im somewhat crazy again nowadays, as in ‘krung-krung’ na ata ako. yosi’s got a big role for me this afternoon =) ..hihi..

i miss my icoi busy days are here again, i cant help it ;’( tsk tsk…
anyhoo, move on and think happy thoughts =)

haaay ano b’to? red alert soon???

Put tang in a glass…i hate this day. i feel so damn low. =’(

sana 6thirty na! wna get out of the office right away.

……………………tsk..tsk..tsk……………………

"Jolie" (the cake’s name)

…that is Marianne’s birthday gift to moi. such a heaven’s delight nga naman haha. ansarap pala ni angelina jolie noh harhar.

thanks Baks, touched ako.
sweetness! made my cravings satisfied kahapon.

Cheers for our friendship! =)

oh-kay fine, i just had my nth birthday ;p ahihi…

(no mentioning of numbers) I’m allergic to it 

haha. tsaka i have a short term memory o, i

forgot na how old i am ;p but my Heart says, "Im

only 20". *winks*

i thank all the beautiful people who greeted me

on my birthday.  and i super thank God for this

another year of my Life =) Cheers. Im lovin’ it.

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Anyhoo, i cant get over my yesterday’s

Shopping Spree sponsored by My Icoi!!! I loved it

baby! Thanks for that super duper fantabulous

gift…much appreciated… actually, kahit wala

yun id still be happy as long as im with you

(Naks! mushy noh? hehe) *pakipot effect* But of

course, who would say NO to shopping,

right!!??! ;p Cheers baby i love u much!

Also, for the yummy Carbonara and Kani Salad

my mom made. ‘Loved it. Thanks for all the

goodness you guys invested for my day.

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…..hmmm….got nothing to add up here na

im too happy. I so much enjoyed my birthday =)

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… The look of love is in your eyes

A look your smile can’t disguise

The look of love is saying so much more

than just words could ever say

And what my heart has heard,

well it takes my breathe away….=)